What does that really mean? When I think of celebrities, their biggest fans applaud their every move. When they do something that is less than stellar, it's alright, because fan know that that star will make a comeback. In scandalous times, those fans defend their favorite celebrity no matter what. Even if they wonder, "what the heck was he or she thinking?" they are still in the front row at concerts and seeing movies on opening night. We put so much into celebrities, and I think it's time for me to model after others and learn what it's like to be a biggest fan.
I will be my own. As a regular person, a mistake leads to eye rolling and even scorn. Last year I had a professor that hated me simply because I challenged what he said. I have family members who sometimes forget I exist. If the world isn't gonna give me my well deserved props, I need to find it within my heart to do that, and love myself unconditionally. If Alicia Keys had a bad show, or if the Eagles lost a game, I would not stop giving them props. Why can't we abide by that for ourselves?
I always thought my father was my biggest fan as far as my writing. He was always excited when I wrote something new, and if anyone else praised my writing, he told that person how proud he was of me. Now my biggest fan is gone, and nobody can replace him. I must learn to halt the self-criticism and embrace the fact that I'm growing as a writer, student, sister, daughter, niece, friend, and simply a human being. From this point out, I'm going to make an attempt to be my own hype man, and when I'm not inspired by external sources, do some self analysis (not criticism) to get motivated. You know what they say: a celebrity is only as big as his or her fan base.
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